kaun fused...!!!!???

KAUN fused?
am I? or the other one who is causing all these mental tensions to me?

when people were telling that this road is full of THORNs, I thought they could be either selfish or living in this world for the sake of living.

After some time as I came to know that they are not of first kind so i thought they could be either of second kind or they are saying with experience.

Whatever they are, i don't care. My only tension is there are lot of thorns and don't know how to run on this road. I don't want to walk slowly, my goal is too far that I should run or I should fly. Otherwise I can't say whether I can reach my goal.

but...

from last 18 years I am running. I never tried to stop myself. I never had control on my speed. I don't know what the world think of me now, and I will try not to care for that in future(as I am just human, i can only TRY but with full enthu).

There were thorns, a lot of thorns on this long long road. I never treated them as a stoppage to my goal. nor I wish to see them now...

then...???

but...

but in last two years I don't know how hard I worked for my goal directly and at the end of the day I thought I succeeded.

BUT...

Whatever I thought four months back, its wrong. Totally wrong. In not more than 4 months(from when I am staying confused... :P) I lost grip on myself. Some other forces are directing me, I don't know where, where I am heading. Totally LOST... LOst...lost...

If I won't start my journey at least now I am sure I am not going to reach my goal for sure. At least I should start walking, because there are some hopes in walking than staying stagnant.

Till yesterday I used to think that because the other one is not good I am confused/tensed/worried/getting worried. But now I am getting that its not the other one, its me who is not perfect. Its me who need to get corrected first of all.

I promise, I promise myself that I will learn these 4 months as a lesson for my future goal, a rejuvenation center which came on my way to rejuvenate me. Let me start my journey.

doston I am a kind of person who will never give up things so easily...!!!

till now u didn't get meaning for the heading...???

don't worry its me whose mind was fused. I had given complaint in our hostel's office to call for electrician, they will call soon. You know its India, it will take time to make this BHARATH.

CONFUSED even now...??? then kaun fused you have to say...

ha ha ha ha...

nagSSSSSsssssssss

"P..O..W..D..E..R..F..U..L.." mistake

I don't remember exactly in which class i was in, but may be in 2nd or 3rd class. Then we used to read out English vocabulary written in our copies loudly in front of the whole class, in the evening hours.

One day my turn came, and i started saying all words loudly. then came P...O...W...D...E...R...F...U...L... and people started laughing but i didn't understand. Then some one said it is powerful not powderful. I thought may be here 'd' is silent. But when one of them said there is no 'd' present, I gave a thought about where I had gone wrong. I missed the class in which sir dictated notes. So when I was coping things from other's notes, thinking he had mistakenly missed 'd' I had written powderful. I recollected what I had seen on ponds powder tin, and thought i am correct.

That was the level of my confidence(over confidence....!!!).

In the other way, some times i go wrong by thinking too much like this. Just one observation on powder tin and a little knowledge of silent letters in the words gave me that confidence to say them they were wrong, not me.

I think that happens in many peoples lives. At least it has been happening in my life till now.

Was I wrong ???

Hiiii dear online readers.....
This is my 1st blog.
For time being I will write about my experience in last summer vacations.

In last june I went to hyderabad to do some project work. One Hot sunny day I was moving nearby Secunderabad railway station. 1st I ate 1 cone ice cream, then I went to bus stop and waiting for a bus to go to my cousin's (Anand's) room . Then a Cone ice cream vender came there.
Due to hot summer day I was interested in eating one more cone ice and asked him Houmuch.
He repied 1 rupee. I paid him 1 rupee and taken ice and even tasted it. He was giving ice to someother one also and i was just watching that while eating ice. Then after i tasted he asks me give 5 more ruppees. I asked why? You said 1 rupee only. He replied without ice just cone is rs 1.
Then i last temper and argued with him and refused to give 5 more rupees.
5 rupees was not a big amount and even if he told me that it was rs 6/- in starting i would have bought it. But he tried to cheat me and i dont know howmany people alread became victims of his cheating. So I decided to teach him a lesson and refused to give him rs 5/- more. He went from there murmuring in himself. When i looked to my co-waiters in the stop they were staring at me and i was even felt to throw that ice. But I thought "Why should i waste it, I dont have power to create it then how can i waste it. And also i spent rs 1/- and why should i throw it away". In this way my thoughts were running while i was finishing Cone Ice Cream.

Feedback is expected fromn readers.
Iam ready to hear your comments(negative or positive doesnt matter) whether i was correct are not at that time.....